Tuesday, January 01, 2008
i came across this post...(some names have been deleted to maintain privacy)
Its so true....if onl i was just half as lucky. sorrows in each human being is beyong explanation....
....Everything happened for a reason.. Peoples always mentioned anger words out of their mouth when angry.. I've already changed so much but u think still I've not been a good wife nor mummy.... I tried to give my best but it's always not enough.. I'll get very affected by all your hurtful words . Our life is not gonna be the same without you by our side but I'll stay strong for our *kid.. Dun worry.. I will take good care of him.. I knew u love him alot & I swear I will nv use him to hurt u~ I really hope even that we can't be husband & wife.. We still gonna be good friends like in the past ok.. Promise.. U're someone who always kept everythings to yourself & exploded @ 1 go.. Perhaps that's why I always can't understand you.. I know the love we once shared will fade off anytime.. But the memories stayed.. Tks you for everythings since the day we 1st met...t.. & I will move on with my own life with *kid. Just wanna let u know that Mummy nv side me.. She scold me as well.. Telling me what's my bad point.. She nv side u nor me.. So hope u dun go against my mum.. she always say *** is stubborn & bad but seeing me crying alone, she pour a cup of water & pat on my head before going to slp.. Even we always argued @ home but I knew they love me too.. Perhaps kids like us who grew up in a single parent background is like this.. w/o father's care thus we're like this today.. Mummy worked so hard to bring 4 of us up single handed.. But we're always not so nice to her.. Even I gave her money every month, I knew tat's not enough to repay her.. She always advise & let us decided wat we wan.. Like getting marry.. getting pregnant.. getting our flat.. Did we even tell her in the 1st place? Nope.. But she respected us & let us have it our way... I admit I'm at fault in our marriage as well.. and I will never let**** grow up like the same way as I do.. I will give & provide him with the best I could afford.. While deleting everything away.. I saw this testimonial I've leave for u in your frdster when we patched back years ago... :-
Hubby.. Thanks for giving our marriage another chance..
Thank you for wanting to spent the rest of your life with Baobei & me again..
I really appreciate everything you did.. Love ya~ ("v")
I cried upon seeing this... I went back into our room.. It's so empty.. Everything is no longer the same.. Without you & your stuffs.. My only regrets is that we're unable to get a new wedding band, unable to take our wedding photography & nv get the chance to discuss & renovate our nest with all the ideas we've been planning.. We can't give **** a home that we've promised him..
In the end.. This's still the path we're ending at... Sincerely wishing you all the best.. Almost everyone dun look up on young parents.. I tot we could proved them wrong.. I believed we've did our best & this's not the ending we wanted.. I still remember U told me, U'll be there with me holding my hand to cross the road when we're both 60 years old.. Now, all this is left at a corner in my heart.. My memories with you........ till the day I close my eyes forever....
Baobei , Mummy & Daddy is really sorry.. We nv want this to happen.. Perhaps when you grow up, U'll understand someday.. Mummy is really sorry to bring this miserable life to you... I don't have to show or prove to others, how much I love you.. It's not just on the surface or just for show.. I admit I've not been a good mummy.. Always bringing works home & neglect you.. Just bcos I dun wanna surf net @ work so I came home to surf the internet & neglect you.. But no matter how.. Mummy will work hard & do my best in teaching you well.. Taking good care of you in future.. Trust Mummy... I really love you lots my dear boy... Sorry for everythings..
People, this should be my last update.. I'm leaving this blog of mine for good.. Everything shall remain as memories.. I will be the the watching from the sky for precious *** in reality & not in this cyberworld.. It's time to wake up from all these, XX..e need you all than anyone do...
GoodBye... =)
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luving God always às 12:21 PM
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
over the weekends, we drove up to paris....500+km for nearly 5 hours. paris is reali a nice place to be in. the hotel is relatively cheap according to people its 72 euros per room per night. i was thinking of goin to paris disney land with darius probably soon. but nxt destination is taiwan. but he has no more leave and prolly onli during hari raya puasa we can go. will plan when i am bac. seriously i suddenly like travelling.. haha i think i always did. been to aus, HK, ROME, LONDON, vienice , PH, THAILAND, FRANKFURT,US, GERMANY.....all the nice places. Sure i am lucky. tis has been truly a nice experience i must say....its a chance u seldom get to be trained in a foreign country. ur experience and knowledge grows. how mani pple get such a chance??
heard my darius can walk ard so happi....paris effiel tower and the mona lisa picture, the place where da vinci code was flimed. imagine how cool was that....germany heidelberg castle, NYC...all the places pple would need to save a lifetime to go. its not cheap. US we stayed for 17 nights hotel stay was 3000 over bucks. exclude air fare of 2000+. i reali enjoyed myself.
ok my stupid maid has a prob..she thinks he bought her pork madness. we all know she cant eat pork yet she can make that comment. and sayshe wan go bac? fine....i am gonna send her home when i get back. i cannot tolerate such nonsense......
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luving God always às 2:57 AM
Monday, July 30, 2007
its freezing cold...can someone pls pls help me??? i onli brouht a jacket and the temp here is like less than 15 degree celcius? the wind blow my whole face freezes up.
now at work....XIANS!!!!! rested whole day yesterday had some chinse food at asia restaurant. freaking ex. 17.50 euros for hotpot mushrooms. that is alomost 40 bucks in sing? isnt that mad? hurr....
can someone teach me to pass time here??????
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luving God always às 2:54 PM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
went to heidelberg and mannheim yesterday...saw castles..cool rite?? the food here is seriously ex and small nt like america. i miss america lots. took the train up to heidelberg cool.goin uo to frank furt nxt weekend
can u imagine all the shops are closed on sundays? is a rest day for all the germans. i am nt racist but i seriously think i dun like....ermmm...u know..
but the history went a long way....
pictures time:
see that bridge..rhine river. from the castle
the castle
let me in....
vassertum
see how ex the food is euros x 2 for convesion. thats nt a meal onli burger.
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luving God always às 7:25 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
yoz....flew off for frankfurt. i am in a shit place i feel....sucks. its some holiday season over here and we couldnt get a hotel so some collegues from frankfurt...booked us a hotel...and it sucks. i'm lucky as compared to some of my collegues. some of their rooms have NO aircon, weird rite. it seems its a norm bt to have airconditioin as its COOL and that electricity is expesive. WTF....haiyoyo still gt til mid aug to last. wonder how when our bosses arrive tomoorrow. they will freak out. also food here is fucking ex. imagine a glass 200ml coke cost 3.20 sing dollars ridiculous. everything here is x2 of singapore currency.
gosh...i reali miss America..people are sooo nice there, shed tears when our collegues sent us off..sighss
germany when i first arrived....the taxi that fetched us. SPED....at 160km/hr. xiao...all the cars here do so in fact. OMG. de n the stupid hotel like a motel. dunno how for the nxt weeks on...den the language. eh HELLO no one speaks engligh all german. i dun even understand what the hell they r talking. even to eat all german...oick and choose? gamble. even to eat a sandwich...my friend who absatains from pork had to imitate the sound of a chicken and pig to ask wad animal or kind of meat thatw as. ridiculous...
after my stint in i would choose to reloccate to america if there is a chance too. will seriously consider. i dun mind. like the life there. 7-3pm. den the people there go out as a family and have alot of family time. i like that...
ok gtg sigining off from a land of dumps...:P
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luving God always às 11:37 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
watch harry potter today. freaking ex 7.50 USD.. was quite boring and i fell asleep. woke up when potter returned to school. first time to a cineam with free seating luckily nt pack if nt will prolly end up seating in the front rows....den went to have dinner..recently a fren of mine is upset. hope he will be strong. i believe there is no true love forever, and that word LOVE is too profound. LOVE and PASSION is a different thing. PASSION is wad make a relation go strong and nt LOVE. PASSION is when u are excited or concerned or feel u wan to do soemthing out of ur way for somebody each day. LOVE stays longer den PASSION do sad to say this..but its the fact of life.
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luving God always às 10:33 AM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
oh ya did i say there was an explosion at NYC 44th street? some steam pipe burst. but i am fine peeps... the roads were closed and the air was polluted wil abesstos, whicch causes harm to health. pple were advused to leave their aircon runnin on at home...cool huh. electrcity rising....gonna watch Harry potter tommoorow den my laudrymat for washing my dirty clothes!! gonna sleep now...tiredz
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luving God always às 1:07 PM
leaving for frankfurt soon, beginnin to miss the STATES. after settling in comfortably and beggining to feel American, its time to leave. i had dinner at menlo park mall today. good pasta and of course DESSERT. because of the portion and the kind of food being served here(all the carbos). have been workin out at the gym 3x a week. but still my intake exceeds the calories lost.....
bought COACH items!!! heee felt a waste if didnt buy. but didnt buy the handbags..dun reali like it?? haha maybe i will change my mind... :P
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luving God always às 12:59 PM
